Happy July 4th

July 4, 2009

When I was a child, I had 3 days a year I used to look forward to. My birthday, Halloween and the 4th of July. Even as I got older it didn’t change. The night before those days I would barely be able to sleep from the anticipation. As time went on and I served this country in not one but two branches of the military in a combat mos (Army and Marines) I found new appreciation for the 4th. Sadly however that is no longer the case. I am beginning to fear that the 4th of July at some point will become one of those forced fake holidays. I say that because I can no longer celebrate the most important aspect of the 4th… Freedom. This country under the guise of protecting us is taking those freedoms that myself and many before me and many right now have fought and are fighting for. Our government is now beginning to dictate how we live our lives. Telling us where we can smoke, what kind of oil we can use to fry our food.. Let me stop right there. Sadly the list is too large to make. All supposedly for our good. I don’t know about you, but I don’t need some government agency to tell me what to do and where. I don’t need you to create more agencies to watch over every aspect of my life. I am a grown ass man and can do that for myself thank you very much. How about instead of worrying about me smoking in a bar (a bar for fucks sake) you go fix our health care system. How about you figure out a way to help the unemployed or the homeless. Your not fooling me. These laws your passing haven’t distracted me from the real problems that face society. Remember how this country was formed and why. I will cut this post short as I am disgusted with having to even write this. The land of the free. Yeah right.


In loving memory

June 6, 2009

At 1358 edt on the 4th of June 2009, my mother Ana Lydia Pacheco died as a result of liver failure. She had contracted hepatitis-c from a blood transfusion while undergoing a hysterectomy. Its odd. This woman beat cancer. Shit she was up and about a week after her surgery. Another week later you would have never guessed that she had surgery. We didn’t know she had gotten hep-c at the time.
Fast forward to several months ago. She goes to the hospital with what she believes are kidney pains. Shes had stones before. This is when we find out about the hep-c. She is put on some regiment of weekly shots, but that is discontinued when she begins retaining water. Her doctor submits her to the transplant list several times from which she is removed. She’s removed because we cant show a bank account with a balance of at least 30k. An account that the hospital wants power of attorney to. They would not accept the money in cash. We had secured a loan from people that would not deposit those sums. Before we could create a front for the cash, she went into liver failure and passed.
There won’t be a funeral. Mom always said she didn’t want one. She abhored the idea of people seeing her in a box and crying. She also didn’t like the idea of the fakes and hatedrs making their snide comments. So we will honor her wishes by having an extremely small ceremony and having her creamated. This is to be attended by a select few that have always been there. For all others there will be a party where we will celebrate her life instead of morning her loss. Those are her wishes and we will honor them.
If you knew her, then remember her as she lived. A woman that always had a kind word for a friend, but also an implacable enemy. Remember her as the free spirit that she was. But most of all remember her. Shed not a tear for her passing but instead hoist up a beer in her name when you party, she would’ve done the same for you.
Te quiero vieja. Te llevo en mi corazon siempre.


Unemployment Insurance

May 28, 2009

I really think that unemployment insurance needs to be renamed. Seriously. I have been working since I was 14 years old. I will be 40 in a few months. I have only collected benefits twice in that time. (The first time was only one check and once even though I ‘qualified’ for benefits I received none because my employer was a catholic school and wasnt required to pay into the fund) The one time I did receive full benefits I asked my employer to fire me to ensure I would receive my benefit.
The way I overtand it, UI is for people out of work. You pay for it and so does your employer, yet you have no guarantee of ever seeing a single penny. If you quit no matter why (with the exception from what I have been able to tell of sexual harrassment) you get nothing. You get fired and you might or might not get anything. There are so many rules you can never be sure. Lets say the company you work for goes out of business, but you’ve only been there a month. You get nothing. Doesnt matter that you have never collected before that.
Look my medical insurance doesnt deny my claim because I fucked that whore bare back and got the clap. My car insurance doesnt deny my claim because I was eating shit and not paying attention when I rear ended that school bus full of parapalegic kids. (Both just examples btw) Yet unemployment will deny your claim for anything they can. Plus you have no choice you have to pay them. They are worse than the mob.
What truely puzzles me is how illegal immigrants are able to collect but I can’t.



May 27, 2009

I’m sure you’ve heard of metropcs and their all you can eat plan for $50/month. While I can complain about the crappy selection of phones or the up to 40 minute delays people are telling me it takes to get a sms at times. Or even the sms failures on rainy days. (From my tests this affects sms to non-metropcs networks. So if i send a txt from a metropcs phoned to an at&t phone and its raining, there’s a good chance it’ll tell me sms failure. General fault.) What really gets me is the fee for paying your bill and the need to give the name of the account holder as well as the password to the account. To pay the bill… Seriously? At a corporate store, there is a $3 fee plus all that info to just pay the bill. Alternatively you can use the payment machine and just pay $2 without the need to give anything but the phone number. Questioning a manager about the need (regular employees will just give you a blank stare and say thats policy) and they tell you its for your own protection. Protection against what? Is there some evil organization out there going around paying peoples bills? Can someone please explain how you can justify charging me to pay my bill? I would like 15minutes alone in a locked room with the asshat that came up with that little jewel. Oh and let me finish by saying that if I pay for a month of service and my service starts on the 15th then my account is past due and may be disconnected on the 16th, not on the 15th of the following month as metropcs likes to do.
In closing let me just say metropcs fuck you and have a nice day.


Memory rape

May 26, 2009

Well it seems that hollywood isn’t done raping my childhood memories. They have tapped wil ferrall for a comedic Land of the Lost. http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0457400/
Sigh, why…


The come back

May 24, 2009

Regular posts will resume soon. Have been busy being unemployed trying to keep eating. Also working on a few short stories and news items.



November 27, 2008

Last night i received news that one of my oldest friends nephew had died. He had been battling cerebral as well as testicular cancer for a while now. Sadly he lost that fight. I wish my memories of him were better than what I have. Although he was never sick nor sickly till he was diagnosed a little over a year ago, his mother and grandmother kept him as a shut in. Poor kid never got to fully live life. I will treasure the few memories I do have of him as happy. The time we took him to watch the Devils and the time we took him to watch wrestling.
May you shelter in the palm of the Creator’s hand, and may the last embrace of the mother welcome you home Peter.